It seemed as close as a star to the moon
3rd Nov 2019 Sunday
And oh man, I so dearly miss her, I miss her so so much. It’s been really long and after coming back from home it kinda didn’t bother me much, I was okay and then Thursday I saw her again, she has started wearing glasses, she’s so damn pretty. I don’t know why I do anything, why the hustle, the job, gym and shit, when the only one, she’s not there, what am I trying to achieve... I’ve never really cared much about anything or anyone and for once in my life when I did, I felt so different for her and see what the heck happened.
Everyday it’s the same routine with office, home and shit. I hate my home, I can’t get it out of my life, I want to travel, run away from all this but I’m stuck here and I want to tell her all the stuff, everything… from beginning to the end but she’s not there.
What would you do if you have feelings for someone but you know they are ‘just feelings’ nothing ever really happened. I was watching this series living with yourself and it’s like this guy has a clone, who has all his memories, so this clone also loves the girl as much as he does. For this clone, he has feelings of some past which never really happened, does it make them “not feelings”? What the heck, where did I wander off to...
Man! I would give anything to sit and talk to her for once. What have I done with my life, I should have never really let myself feel like this for anyone.
They say, it’s all gonna be okay, you vl get over it, it takes time and I don’t see myself moving on, I end up in the same corner over and over again. Maybe this life’s really not for me. But then you always have a green light that burns at the end of your dock (~gatsby)
I would live my whole life watching that green light, It had seemed as close as a star to the moon.
