Kotonoha no Niwa
2nd January 2019 Wednesday
This is to her
Wish I could tell you, I wish I could talk to you, I miss you so damn much, all the time, all the damn time…
Life’s meaningless, there’s no sense in the things we do, just hopping from one dream to another shit, until it’s dark. And in this fucking morbid of a journey, I stumbled onto you, giving me little hope.
Was watching this anime “the garden of words” it had this tanka(Japanese poem in five lines)
“A faint clap of thunder Clouded skies Perhaps rain will come If so, will you stay here with me?”
“A faint clap of thunder Even if rain comes not, I will stay here, Together with you”
Hope I could watch it with you. It gets lonely,.. and I wander in thoughts of you
What’s the point of carrying on, when all I have done is loose in life. Had this crush in school, never told her back then, had this crush in college she was with someone, had a crush in office, she was married and had a crush on you, and I remember the words you said “I’m already seeing someone” …Wish I could cry.
I have this regret, things might have been different if I was like a different guy with elegant hairs and sophisticated looks because the truth is, we are humans and we judge people on their looks before we give them a chance. It gets cold and nothing is helping, need to get my hands on alprax.
